VagrantTV

Why I Got Put In Check

2011-10-27T12:47:00.000-05:00

Welcome back.

I thought I'd write another blog today - it has been quite some time now since I have written an entry but today I was feeling like it was the right time to sit down and get my thoughts in order.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about VagrantTV and what it actually means to me. I know that recently, everything that has had to do with this web-based fan organization has been revolving around Paul Walker's work and ways I've been trying to get myself involved with his non-profit. To be truly honest about things, none of this is what I really wanted out of VagrantTV. Never did I intend for it to "grow" this big and reach this many people, and never did I intend for Paul to become minimally involved with the network of Twitter and come into contact with his fan base and occasionally step in and spread a bit of the word of projects that I along with many others have been working on. (e.g. Day of Hope) When all of this began to happen, I feel as though VagrantTV took a turn down a path that I tried desperately not to follow since the beginning. After these small moments here and there, I found myself using VagrantTV merely for the purpose of thinking it was something good. What I began here, really isn't anything at all. All this is, is a simple idea that somehow became involved with one too many things.

I have no experience, I have no knowledge nor do I have any legitimate ties that make VagrantTV a substantial organization. It's difficult to call it an organization when that's not how it should be classified either - the truth behind it all is that it is an alias that I tend to use when trying to connect myself to various topics related to Paul Walker. I have been portraying VagrantTV as this incredible, fan-based community that is here to help spread word about the non-profit and share media with other fans. However, as I began to start out saying, I haven't had any true right to any of this nor is it anything to become proud of. VagrantTV is a simple idea. It's my alias, it's a YouTube channel. It is not God's gift to Paul Walker nor Reach Out Worldwide and it is certainly nothing to be excited over. I have used and abused VagrantTV in a way that is terribly embarrassing and shameful. I have been using it selfishly, trying to fulfill my own goals of helping ROWW and making a name for itself.

It is none of these things.

I was put into check today, and as I write this, I feel a great sense of shame and indeed embarrassment once more. I was watching a simple interview over the internet of Paul Walker sitting down with several interviewers as he began to speak about his passions: marine biology, health and medicine, his daughter, nature, and helping others. As he spoke, he spoke intensely and selflessly about every topic he so chose. In the interview he began to talk about his trip down to Haiti and seeing the devastation that surrounded the places they visited. At one point during the interview, he made a comment about being amongst the rubble with many onlookers not knowing how to proceed... and off in the distance he spotted Anderson Cooper climbing the destruction and staring into the camera in front of him. Paul laughed and in a jokingly manner stated that he knew Anderson was acting and was "a poser". In the middle of all the true unhappiness and realness of the situation, Anderson stood on top of a pile, delivering word about what was going on but not actually being a part of what was going on around him.

This struck me.

I have no right to even consider myself comparable to Anderson Cooper, but for simplicities sake, I am going to say, that for the first time since I began this crusade - I felt like Anderson - I was an actor, a poser.

That is what VagrantTV has become.

After Paul had made that comment, I knew that I had to change what I was doing. I was ashamed and no longer wanted to be a part of that realm - the part that stands back, watches what is going on, and does nothing more than comment on the situation or "pretend" that its making a difference. Everything I have done up to this point has been nothing but a true embarrassment. If I was being true to myself, if I really wanted to be someone who could support Paul in his efforts and help, I wouldn't need these grand gestures. In the end, it's about quality, not quantity. Has anything I have done thus far actually made a difference? Have my cheesy logos and t-shirt designs on the internet really helped anything? Has my YouTube channel REALLY generated revenue that's even noticeable? (no.)

I am not saying these things for attention or condolence, I am stating these things as fact. I have become the person that I least wanted to be - a whiny, obnoxious, high-maintenance fan girl who is waving her arms violently trying to make some sort of an idiotic statement... all in the name of making myself sleep better at night. Pathetic.

The interview that I saw today with Paul... he spoke so candidly. Passionately. The tone of his voice, the excitement in his eyes and gestures - he was the real deal. He's not out there doing good things to make himself look good or impress others... he's doing them because he feels it. It's who he is, and it's what he wants to do. THAT is what the purpose of VagrantTV should be. I have lost sight of that. Even now, as I write this, I am embarrassed... I know it's unnecessary and out in the real world, no one gives a fuck what I have to say, especially since I don't have anything to offer. Writing this is just one more obnoxious act to add to the list of things I've already done - in real life, no one would ever do such a thing. No one would make outrageous manifestos like this. I'm sure if Paul knew me in real life, he would feel that way too.

From what I can see, and from what I have learned from him - it's all about being subtle. Being genuine. Being "low-maintenance". I have ruined that deeply for myself, and I highly regret it. So, once this entry is done, that is the end of gestures like this - it's not needed. VagrantTV will continue on, posting, updating, sharing great things about Paul Walker as we all would enjoy, however as for my efforts and involvement - I'll just donate and do that on my own time.

I do deeply apologize for having written this cry for attention, (which I never intended it to be either) and I do deeply apologize for the way I have abused VagrantTV.

I appreciate each one of you, and all the support you have shown for VagrantTV along with Paul Walker and his charitable foundation, Reach Out Worldwide. Despite the many kind words you have all shared over the past few months, I sincerely feel undeserving of them. Please do not leave comments nor respond to this essay - I wrote it only to express my apologies and sincerity. VagrantTV is a hobby - something I should enjoy doing. I have taken it much too seriously lately and it became a symbol of something I never wanted it to be.

Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts, and for understanding what I have just said. That couldn't have been an easy task.

I will do my best to continue with VagrantTV as I originally had wanted it to be - just a fun extra-curricular project that allows fans like myself to look into the window of who Paul Walker really is... a real person, a humanitarian, a good human being. Here is the interview.

I shall aspire to take on his mentality and become more like him. Quiet, peaceful, and just enjoying life.

ROWW Day of Hope

2010-11-24T01:47:00.000-06:00

Hello again, Paul Walker fans!

Here it is - another pay it forward project... but this time, with MUCH more meaning. VagrantTV has teamed up with two lovely ladies via Twitter; @Ramseyfan and @Paulgasm47. Together, we are organizing an event of the season... the "ROWW Day of Hope". On December 11th, we would like YOU to become a part of this project. In fact, we would not be able to do it without you.

We are asking each and every Paul Walker fan via Twitter and Facebook, to help us give Paul Walker, Reach Out Worldwide, and most importantly, those affected by natural disaster a holiday gift they will never forget. All it takes is a $5.00 donation to www.ROWW.org from each individual person on Dec. 11. Imagine the possibilites that $5 from all 300,000 Paul Walker fans could accomplish through Reach Out!

We're hoping that if you take the time to participate on December 11th and donate to this worthy cause, we will really change people's lives and make a difference in the world.

But don't forget - we need ALL of you to make it work. So, give us a hand by helping spread the word to those you know... (and those you don't) and let's make this happen!

For all of the information on this project and how it works, please visit the "ROWW Day of Hope" official Facebook page here: http://tinyurl.com/2vd8tc4

Thank you VERY much for your time and consideration everyone... we hope that you'll join us!
Be the change you want to see in the world... and as Paul Walker would say, "Be good to one another."

Cheers, see you on the other side.
VagrantTV

VagrantTV T-Shirts Now Available - 100% of Profit to ROWW

2010-10-28T17:22:00.000-05:00

Hey fans,

Thank you so much for all of your interest and support toward VagrantTV. As you know, I am not
Paul Walker himself. This community was developed by a fan, for the fans. With that said, I just wanted to clear the air & let you know the details behind this new campaign!

I received a suggestion to create VGTV logo t-shirts. When I first heard of this idea, I disregarded it immediately because I didn't believe selling "Non-Branded" merchandise for profit was appropriate. After all, this small independent fan project was no reason to market. All VagrantTV is about, is "the real side of Paul Walker". The channel was made merely for entertainment purposes and to engage with other fans. If anyone was to receive loyalties from VagrantTV, I believed it would only make sense for Paul or another source to accept.

After giving it some time, I thought that perhaps creating t-shirts with the Reach Out Worldwide URL would be a good way to promote awareness. When I looked in to online merchandise companies, I saw that I could display designs in an online store and the public could choose the style/shirt of their choice. So in the end, I thought that taking all of the profits and donating them to Paul's disaster relief foundation would be a good solution.

All in all, from each t-shirt sold in our online store, 100% of the profit will go towards Reach Out Worldwide on a non-partnered, individually chosen basis. I think it will be a good and fun way to raise awareness as well as money for this incredible cause.

Please note that this is a beta period to see how this idea is received by fans, supporters, and by Paul Walker. If any problems or issues occur, VagrantTV's online store will be terminated. If you have more questions or concerns, please email me at VagrantTV@gmail.com.

Visit Reach Out Worldwide's website to donate directly:
www.ROWW.org

Visit VagrantTV's online store:
www.Zazzle.ca/VagrantTV

Thanks everyone!
Cheers

Thanks for Making the 201st Upload Special

2010-10-24T01:50:00.001-05:00

Hello again Fans!

I'm very happy to say that the 201st video upload was a great success. There were many submissions of messages, and I am very thankful that you all could have been a part of it! So thanks for everything, you have been wonderful supporters for the past two years.

The video was sent to Paul Walker via Twitter this afternoon... and I'm VERY happy to say that he had the rare opportunity to watch! It makes it all worth while, I'll tell you that much. He pleasantly sent a shout out for all that contributed... he Tweeted:

"WOW!!!... that's about all I can say...thanks a TON for the kind words and for all the support in the vid for www.ROWW.org...RT @VagrantTV"

Congratulations fans! You all deserve it. And I thank you too, from the bottom of my heart, for supporting me and allowing me to continue to do this. It's been a fun ride!

I hope to upload more videos shortly... no exclusives, just a few fun web clips for you to enjoy.
Be good, and stay tuned!

Love,
VagrantTV

To watch the video, "Your Fans Say Hello, Paul Walker" click here.

Send PAUL WALKER a Message!

2010-10-08T01:42:00.000-05:00

Hi everyone,

I'd like to first thank you for being so supportive of VagrantTV over the past two years. For something that started out as being a hobby, it has really turned into something I had never expected. As much as the channel has grown over time, I still have higher hopes of it becoming something more - something useful, something important. It's hard to say that those wishes will ever come true, since after all, it is just a YouTube gig. However, while it's here and while it's lasting, I would like to make it count... as much as possible.

While in the midst of sharing a much more passionate and real side to Paul Walker, helping him raise awareness for his disaster relief fund Reach Out Worldwide, and bringing his fans closer to his "non-Hollywood" style of living... I thought it would be fun to create a new project strictly for the fans. So here's the deal: in celebration of our 200th upload, I'd like to create a compilation of special messages from each one of you... to Paul Walker. Your personal message will be included in our next video, along with the others, and the video will be released to VagrantTV's YouTube channel, Facebook page, MySpace page, Twitter account and of course - will be sent directly to Paul himself.

How does that sound? Are you up for it? Are you ready to make VagrantTV's 201st video SPECIAL?!

I sure hope so. Because I sure am.

I'd really like to give something back to all of you dedicated PW fans for bringing your constant support of VagrantTV to the table every day. I think it's only appropriate to flaunt you fans to Paul Walker, after two years of flaunting Paul Walker to you fans. So, if you're interested in sending him a special message for the next video, check out the deets below:

TERMS & CONDITIONS

-The special message must be a MAXIMUM of 35 words or less
-Must be appropriate for ALL ages - no use of profanity, discrimination, or sexual comments
-Recommended to be written in English
-Must be submitted to VagrantTV via Email, Facebook posts/messenging, YouTube messenging, Twitter, or posted to the bottom of this blog entry
-By submitting your special message to VagrantTV, you are accepting and agreeing to PUBLIC USE (E.g. Message will be included in video, posted to YouTube, Twitter, Facebook, MySpace, and any outside sources that may view or share the video link to third-party websites)
-Only one message per person will be used in the video

-Your special message MUST be submitted before or on the date of October 16th, 2010 - 12:00am CST

-Each message will be viewed and processed the following day of end time

-***PLEASE NOTE*** that depending on content, your message may be modified and/or rejected if violations against Terms & Conditions occur

Disclaimer:
VagrantTV is in no way, personally affiliated with Paul Walker, his relatives, agents, managers or any company that could have contact with him. This is merely run by a fan. The video displaying the messages will be sent directly to Paul via social utility "Twitter" but cannot fully gurantee that it will be viewed and/or responded to. Any response received shall be highlighted on VagrantTV's various internet sources (Blogspot, Facebook, MySpace, Twitter & YouTube) so please do not contact me about any response given until possible further notice.

---HOW TO SEND YOUR MESSAGE TO VAGRANTTV---
Please send your special message for Paul Walker to VagrantTV in one or more of the following ways specified:

1. Email your message to: VagrantTV@gmail.com or click here
2. Post your message as a comment on our channel here
3. Send your message via YouTube direct messaging here
4. Send your message via Facebook profile messaging here
5. Post your message on our Facebook page wall here
6. Send your message as a Tweet on our Twitter page here or "@VagrantTV"
7. Send your message via Twitter direct messaging here
8. Post your message as a comment on our blog here
9. Send your message via MySpace direct messaging here
10. Post your message as a comment on our MySpace page here

If you have any questions, comments, or concerns about this project, let me know by emailing me here

Good luck and happy writing! Tell Paul we say hi! :-)

Take care,
VagrantTV

Starting Up a Blog!

2010-10-08T00:04:00.000-05:00

Hey VagrantTV followers,

I'm just testing out this new blogging service for all of you to stay up to date on the latest news from VagrantTV.
I will be honest by saying this first post is really boring, and merely a test to see what it will look like everytime I post.

The end,

Cheers